Unknown Mom

I need to say without enriching knowledge, hollow yearning, no matter wait our attainments are in life there is a most disquieting loss and rejection which also includes a damaged sense of self-esteem. I did do a lot of research and I need to say much of the research pertains to me and how I feel. I now understand so much more about myself. Black Market babies feel rejected and abandoned by there birth mother. This is accompanied by feelings of grief and loss that can surface at any age in there life. Sooner or later studies show it always does. When a baby is separated from there birth mother they undergo extensive trauma, the baby will not remember the trauma , however it does remain in the subconscious mind for there entire life. Feelings for me stir up all the time. There must be something wrong with me that my mom would sell me like a piece of furniture in a showroom.