When Tears Turn to Rain
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The Prison
In 2013, I simply existed. Hidden from reality, I pondered the what-ifs in my life. I had emerged from behind a dark curtain and into a world not known by most. My existence diminished as the continuous poison of alcohol ran through my veins. Daily, I ingested the very thing that melted my mind. Was I delusional? Yes. Crazy? Maybe. Shattered dreams had angered my very being. I zombie-walked among others in a state of coma. I answered questions with a blank stare. People left bewildered as did I. Isolation was my best friend. Just the thought of conversation caused me distress. Solitude engulfed my every word when I was able to muster the courage to speak. In a room, I sat dazed and puzzled. The days ran into months and the months into years. During the day, I sat among grim reapers. At night, I danced with movie stars. My Technicolor sci-fi dreams seemed to run into reality. I hoped for the worst, yet feared the best. With my yesterdays forgotten, my memories perished. As the walls closed in on me, alcohol became my ultimate prison. I had sealed my own fate. Thankfully, this is not where my story ends. This is where it begins.
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When Tears Turn to Rain tells the personal story of a woman who, at forty, made a vow to herself to give up drinking, to pursue sobriety, and to save her own life. Based upon her journal entries, where she recorded her reflections along the way, she has crafted a sparse, unblinking, and straightforward account of her struggles and achievements along the path to living a sober life.
When Tears Turn to Rain focuses on the turn toward living and away from dying that the author made. As she writes, “At the age of forty, I realized that my journey was coming to an end. By this time, I was sick and shook so badly that I should have been hospitalized. But still determined to reach my destination of Skid Row, I pedaled all the harder. In December 2012, one block before I reached Skid Row, I noticed a beautiful sign that was lit up with sunshine. Its two words were the most beautiful I had ever seen: Sobriety Place.” This is the story of what happens when she heads toward that beautiful place.
This memoir reveals the details of an individual’s journey into sobriety, showing how one woman faced her addiction and changed the direction of her life.