Christ My Healer and Deliverer

I was not a happy child. I felt as though I did not belong. It was nothing my parents or siblings had done. As I look back today, I feel Satan did everything in his power to destroy me early in my life; but I am still here. I was raised by Christian parents, and they expected us to live a certain way. There were two things they expected us to do, attend church, and go to school. The school I attended was Public School #4 and it was directly across the street from where I lived. My parents were known by the teachers, and they knew to notify them if I or my siblings were a problem in school. One day I was home with my mom and dad and we were seated at the kitchen table. They began to talk about my birth and the things they experienced with me because of my health. My dad said something that changed my life. He mentioned when I came along he really wanted a boy after two girls. I heard what he said, but it got distorted in my mind; and I though he did not want me. I spent the rest of my life trying to prove I was as good as any boy. I hated my name Johnnie, for it reminded me how much my dad wanted a boy; because his name was John. There were two older boys that lived next door to us. I began to hang around them and they taught me how to play baseball, basketball, football, marbles and the things I needed to prove how good I was athletically doing boy things. I never had any problems being chosen for a team whether it was a boys' team or a girls' team. I always had some sort of health issues. I had two problems I suffered with from my childhood until adulthood. I had constant pains in my stomach. I had upper and lower GI series, but the results were always negative. Things will not show up until God allows them to. Secondly I suffered with migraine headaches. Sometimes I had a migraine for several days. I stayed in a dark room, used an ice bag on my head. These headaches seem to take all the strength from my body. Often I would cray when I got one of these attacks, but my mother said I was just making matters worse. I suffered more frequently in the summer months. There were times when my pastor prayed for the headache. He said when he placed his hand on my head he literally felt the pounding I was experiencing. It felt as though someone had dropped an anvil on my head. When I got older I had an allergy screening. One of the things I was extremely allergic to was cocklebur. I did not know what it was until the doctor showed me a picture of the plant. Cocklebur bushes grew all around my yard and my neighbors' yard. It was a small round plant with prickly things attached to it. We played games and threw them at one another. They stuck to your cloths and in your hair. When you got one in your hair, it was not easy to get out. There was an over abundance of these bushes every summer. The Lord never told me He was going to heal me from migraines. One day I thought, I don't remember the last time I had a migraine. Prior to this I had them frequently. A migraine is totally different from a normal headache. I no longer have migraine headaches, and very rarely do I have a normal headache. When I realized the Lord had healed me, I began to rejoice and thank Him,